Her partner, Jess Cameron, stayed in the same hotel while she went through with the act nearly three weeks ago.
She told the newspaper: "I felt obliged... to please him as he had just paid all this money.
"It didn't feel like it was happening to me. I felt like I was watching it happen to someone else.
"I was just so relieved when it was over... I was desperate to get back to Jess as I felt so uncomfortable."
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